Thursday, November 26, 2015

Happy Thanksgiving! The Many Reasons I am Thankful For

First and foremost, Happy Thanksgiving everyone!! I can't believe how fast this year has gone. Christmas is literally right around the corner. Today I'll be spending the day with my family at my abuelita's house. We are having dinner early so I'll probably have dinner twice. I haven't had a Thanksgiving with my family in a really long time so I am pretty excited. I usually always work so I never come home. Actually my parents are not even in the country. They left last Sunday so I won't even spend the holiday with them. Luckily I'll still be around family and spending Thanksgiving with my aunts, uncles, cousins, and of course my abuelita. 


Along with wishing everyone a Happy Thanksgiving, I also wanted to give you guys a little update on what's been going on in my life. Lately I haven't really been blogging. It just hasn't been a priority in my life right now. It's not because I don't love doing it, it's just that I have been keeping my focus on a more important matter. A few months ago I opened up to my readers about my infertility issues. Ever since October, I have been undergoing treatment towards doing IVF. It's consisted of multiple doctor appointments, labs, ultra sounds, and medications. It's been draining, stressful, costly, and down right exhausting. For those of you that don't know what IVF is, IVF is the process of fertilization by manually combining an egg and sperm in a laboratory dish, and then transferring the embryo to the uterus. It's usually a last ditch effort for those who can't conceive naturally...like me.


Sounds intense right? Well it is. I've really tried to stay as positive as possible during this entire process, but it's been tough. Just two days ago, I lost it. I had left from a doctor's appointment feeling defeated and frustrated. I started doubting this entire process and most importantly I started doubting my faith in God. I mean the tears just came flowing and I just couldn't control my emotions. What frightened me the most was that I was losing faith. I immediately texted a few of my close friends and just asked for prayer. Prayers to keep me focusing on the bigger picture. Prayers to not feel defeated. Prayers to not lose my faith in God's plan. 

As far as what's next with my IVF...well next week they will do my egg extraction. This is actually a really big deal that has been giving me some anxiety. As of right now my follicle count is still low considering how many hormones they have me taking either by tablet form or injections. Basically the more eggs they can get, the better. It increases your chances of conceiving. Unfortunately all women are not built the same. Some women that go through IVF can get more than 10 follicles after all the medications, but I was given the unfortunate diagnosis of low follicle count for my age. Right now I have about four that "okay" but not "great." 

So this week I have been extremely grateful and thankful for my close friends. They have been my rock during this ordeal. To the few that know what I have been going though, they have been there for me through prayer. They have been incredibly supportive. Good friendships are hard to find, but I am blessed to have friends that are like family in my life.  Their friendship means the world to me. I should also point out that my husband has also been very incredible during this whole process. Not to leave him behind here, but I am grateful to be going through this with someone so kind and compassionate. 


I guess what I am trying to point out is that this year I really have a lot to be thankful for. My heart is full with gratitude and love. Not only am I back home but I have a great job that I truly love. We have a roof over our head that provides comfort and I have my adorable pups that just love me unconditionally. This year I have been spending as much time with my family since life is short. In the blink of an eye, your whole life can be turned upside down. Ever since my father and cousin's cancer diagnosis's, I have truly been trying to spend time with the people that matter the most to me. So today hug your parents a little longer, embrace your kids and hold them close to you, and send a thoughtful text to the friends that matter the most to you. Tomorrow isn't guaranteed and you never know how much of an impact you'll make on someone just by a simple gesture. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!


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9 comments:

  1. Once again, I respect you for being honest with us about your IVF journey. Prayers and positive thoughts for you as you go through with the remaining processes! HUGS!

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  2. Sending much love and prayers your way - now and for the days ahead! Hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving.

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  3. I have prayed for you every night thus far and will continue to do so. Dreaming of kids of my own hopefully sooner rather than later, I can only imagine what you're feeling throughout all of this. Who knows, I could have the same path myself. No matter what, you've got your tribe rallying behind you and are ready to lift you up if it's needed. Stay strong, friend! ��

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  4. Oh Daisy! I'm so sorry! I knew when I saw that IG post the other day that something must have happened to leave you feeling faithless. I too suffer from low ovarian reserve and we have male factor infertility too. We just saw our RE and we are starting our IVF journey in January. Remember that you are stronger than you think you are! You are in my thoughts and prayers! Much love to you! 😊

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    1. Thank you Tedi! You are also in my thoughts and prayers.

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