Sunday, December 27, 2015

Current Life Update: Review of 2015 Resolutions/Goals

Yesterday I blogged about my running year. Today I am blogging about how my year went overall. I had big plans for 2015. On the first day of the year, I set out my goals/resolutions and I was excited. I know most people never keep their resolutions, but I was determined to try my hardest to achieve them. I didn't want to be like everyone else and completely forget about them after a few weeks.  But of course things never really go as planned. Life gets complicated and you just have to roll with the punches.

Here is a quick recap on my 2015 goals and how well they panned out:

Personal Goals:
1. More date nights with my husband.
(definitely tried to do this)
2. Be better with my budget.
(yeah that went out the door as soon as we started IVF)
3. Spend more time with family.
(moved to San Diego to be close to family)
4. Be open to change
(new job, new house, new city)
5. Don't sweat the small stuff!
(was hard to do towards the end of the year)

Running Goals:
1. Get a PR.
(big fat negative)
2. Work on speed!
(did hill sprints but could've done more)
3. Travel out of state for a race.
(had to cancel San Antonio race due to budget)
4. Run 7 half marathons pain free.
(ran 6 half marathons and one 10k)
5. Incorporate more 5Ks in my training.
(no...I realized I don't really like that distance)

Travel Goals:
1. Visit Big Sur.
(sadly did not visit this year)
2. Visit friends in East Coast.
(sadly this also was not done)
3. Travel to one international country.
(went to Mexico if that counts)
4. Go to the snow.
(I did go snow boarding)
5. Do more day/weekend trips in CA.
(went to Yosemite and traveled around San Diego)

I started the year living in Fresno, but within a month I managed to get a job in San Diego. So my year right from the start had us selling our first house, moving in with my parents, and starting a new job.  I dealt with injuries that affected my running. I had to cope with not only my father having cancer but my cousin having breast cancer at the young age of 24. We also dove head first into the real estate market in San Diego. By June 1st we had the keys to our second home together. But the biggest thing that I dealt with was my infertility issues. This year marked three years of no baby, so in October my husband and I embarked on a new journey with our infertility, IVF. I mentioned it a few times over the last few months. It was pretty much our last ditch effort to try to get pregnant.  Not only was it emotional but it was also very financially draining. Sadly, our IVF journey ended about two weeks ago. It was the worst day of the year for me. I have cried every day since then. I have been trying to process all this, but it has been very tough. In a nutshell, my husband and I now know we are unable to get pregnant even with the help of modern medicine. After a biopsy of our three remaining embryos, they all came back with chromosome deficiencies.

This year started off so great, full of hope. But unfortunately, the most recent news of our failed IVF kind of put a damper on things.  My blog originally started out only being about running and trying to stay fit, but this year I began to open up about my personal life. It has been liberating to share some of this stuff with you guys. I want to say thank you for the many prayers during our IVF cycle. We definitely felt them even though it didn't take. I don't know what 2016 has in store for me, but I am going to try to focus on being grateful for what I have. I just want to keep smiling and shed no more tears.

Do you have any resolutions for 2016?

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  1. My heart aches for you, Daisy! I don't know what it feel like to go through the IVF process and hear that you are unable to have children the "typical" ways. I hope 2016 shows you some love and joy!!

  2. I am praying that 2016 brings you everything you ever wanted. Good effort on all the 2015 goals also. I do have a few resolutions for 2016, I'm already working toward them.

  3. It takes such strength to share your personal trials and struggles with your readers. You've had a busy year, and I can't wait to see what goals you have planned for 2016!

  4. Daisy, praying for a better 2016 for you. I do have some resolutions...finish my degree, read my Bible, increase my riding speed and bench 100 lbs. I feel like they are more goals than resolutions. I have a friend whose wife is undergoing IVF and it is a very painful process. I can't imagine the pain. Sending blessings and love your way.

  5. I wish I could give you a big fat HUG!! consider it done virtually. I don't set resolutions but do try to outline goals. Biggest thing for me in 2016 is to take it one day at a time. Look forward to what 2016 has in store for you!!

  6. I am saying prayers for you! I can't imagine what you are going through. I have some personal goals and running goals for this year. Nothing crazy, but I do want to enjoy the small things more.

  7. I can not even imagine the sorry and heart ache you are feeling right now. My thoughts and prayers are with you. *Hugs*


  8. I am so sorry to hear about your infertility problems. I can not imagine what you are going through, but I give you such props for being so open. I hope that some special happens to go in 2016.