Thursday, October 6, 2016

Anxiety Before Race Day: Chicago Marathon

This entire week I have been having so much anxiety over the Chicago Marathon on Sunday. I think about it and I feel like screaming. I have worked so hard for this upcoming race but I am terrified that it was all just a waste of time. Crazy right? I started off wanting to finish in 4h15min but now I am settling with just crossing that finish line. Don't get me wrong crossing that finish line would be an accomplishment in itself but I wanted to push myself to do my very best. Right now I don't think I can do it. Right now the anxiety is taking over. Right now I am second guessing my entire training. 

I shouldn't doubt all my hard work. I know I have put in the time and miles. Some runs were better than others but I stuck with it and made it to my longest run of 22. Somehow I can't seem to wrap my brain around the concept of trusting my training though. Ugh! Even just writing about the marathon makes my skin crawl. I remember feeling this way for my first few races. I couldn't really sleep or eat because of the nerves. This week has been just like that! It's like deja vu! 

We arrive today and will be in Chicago until Monday evening. Even with all the nerves, I am excited about going back to the windy city. I am also excited my husband is taking a few days off and visiting Chicago with me. Best part is that he has a ton of family that lives in Chicago so he gets to visit them and I get to meet them for the first time. They are already planning on cheering me on at mile 24 on Sunday and hosting a little bbq for me after the race! Throughout this whole training plan my husband has been amazing. He has been my rock and biggest supporter. 

I'm hoping by race day, the nerves will settle and everything will fall into place. I am going to just truly enjoy the run and make the most of my time in Chicago. Here goes nothing guys! Wish me luck!

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1 comment:

  1. You can do it! The energy is electric and will motivate you. Try to relax and trust your training. You are capable of impossible things!